JOURNEY

Starting our trip to Sindhupalchowk on April 11th, we headed to Koteshwor at 7:30 am and reached Dhadkhola at 10:30 am on Rs. 85/head. Took lunch (chiura, chana, chicken)in the DK bazaar and crossed the jholunge pul at around 11:15 am. Below was Indraabati flowing. Walked in the dreadful sun for about 15 minutes. Rested in tree shadows, watched the children swimming and took snaps. Forgot a cap and returned back again. Rested in a big tree near a small fountain and ate grapes. Then headed a straight hill ahead in midday sun. Rested 4-5 times during the uphill journey and took nearly 3-1/2 hours to reach the destination.

On reaching the top, we forgot all the difficulties. The wind was pleasant and we ate pure curd, banana, and chiura (too tasty) in Badegaon. Rested a bit and went to Thanti, saw the school and took snaps. Returned back and ate masyaura and rice. We then slept. Though electricity was available, we could not see due to load shedding. Water was easily available in every place in this village. Got up early morning and felt the stomach not functioning well. Had 3/4 bowel movements. Roamed down and took snaps. Returned back, ate rice with all pure stuffs and headed shortcut towards the main road.

Indeed a great fun to know we reached to the bank in about half an hour just because we had to hurriedly follow a leader (an old man). Stayed in the yesterday’s water fountain and crossed Indraawati. Took snaps there too and the stones were slippery and the flow of the river strong. Walked on the hot sand and reached the main road. We planned to reach Melamchi and watch the water but due to Nepal bandh, the plan failed. Finished a wai wai and walked towards Kunta besi. Found a trax and a crowded bus following it. We took the trax, payed Rs.15/head and reached Kunta. Ate chicken and chiura and headed other relative’s home. Found red soil and ainselu and reached there. Found gobar gas and drank black tea. Again headed inner areas and oldest house and returned back. Took touch-me-not videos and had fun. Ate evening meal and watched DVD for a few minutes and slept with mosquitoes all over.

The next morning, got up and had a cup of milk and walked straight towards Dhaitar, Mahadevsthan. From there, went roaming for about an hour and saw fat in milk checked, took a touch-me-not plant, and took snaps in big stones. Then reached Mahadevsthan and played cards and had rice with ghee. Felt heavy and slept for a few moments in a hot day. Got up and went to other relative’s house and had tea and biscuit. Then headed at around 4 pm to Chainpur uphill through the jungle. Reached the top in about 5:30 pm. Nagarkot was just in front of this hill. Reached the top and had popcorn and soyabeans. Again roamed downwards and reached the place at night and had a meal. Then went up and slept in a mosquito net.

Next morning, we had lots to do. So, got up at 5 am and had tea. Headed downwards and within 45 minutes, we reached Mahadevsthan. Stayed there for a few minutes and went Kunta. Stayed there too and watched the well and the most awaited buffalo worth Rs. 43,000 giving 7 liters of milk. Then caught a bus to Lamindada and got heated in a crowded bus. From Lamindada, headed Palanchowk in a trax (Rs. 30/head). Took snaps outside and ate vegetable chowmein and achar and headed Satdobato which never seem to come. Finally, went our home and took snaps. Returned and went Tiharthok, met mom and stayed in Pipalbot as the bus was already missed. So, thought of walking but fortunately were able to catch a trax just nearby and went Palanchok. Again, had a lunch there and caught a trax to Banepa (Rs. 60/head). From Banepa, stayed in a big bus and reached Koteshwor safely. From Koteshwor, we walked to office and finally arrived in the New Year Evening.

15th April, 2009

NEW ONES

2066/01/11
April 24th
Disillusionment

What a life to cherish
What a moment to live by
What a friend to shed tears
What a company to be with
What a snobbery to be seen
What a world to laugh at
What an improper creature a man
What a dilemma to survive through them
What an illusion created over all
What a bondage to pass through

Oh me! oh miserable me !
Hypocrisy rules
Fate governs
Predicament inescapable
Silence everywhere

April 24
Paranoia

Finding myself in this state now, it is pretty hard to distinguish what might be right and what not, who are correct and who not. I never imagined I might be in this position some day. But time is a mystery. No one knows what happens when. It gives an opportunity for everyone to get experienced its various elements. No haste, just a patience, and it will be granted. Ah, mercy.

A state when we find all things out of track, all people out of way, nobody could be trusted upon, we get blank- a feeling of hopelessness and worthlessness, depression, frustration, and what not. An easy impetus for a suicidal attempt but something still is preventing me from such stuffs, maybe the knowledge gained so far, maybe the experiences, maybe the aftermaths. Know not.

It seems good though as it is going to take a firm way now onwards, just a hope anyway. At least something will end and something open. It seems an outlet for expression. Enough is enough. Expression is better than explosion, whatever, however. Let it alone be paranoid feelings. Enough of suppression and repression. A way out is essential, a necessity and natural. Nature is powerful, hardly avoidable. It takes its track out and becomes natural and everything is in equilibrium.